So, I’m finally wrapping up my last thoughts about my trip to Pittsburgh. I’ve been meaning to post this message for the past few days, but other things kept coming up, and I think, maybe, subconsciously I just wasn’t ready to let this subject go....
It’s been about two weeks since I’ve been back from Pittsburgh, and I can honestly say that I’m still very sad that we had to leave. I was sad to leave my mom and step-dad, sad to leave the beauty of the city, and also sad to leave the place where my mind was clear enough to get a new perspective on things in my life. Now that some time has passed, I realize that every ending always means there is a new beginning. Like T.S. Eliot says, “In my end is my beginning.”
As I wrote about in a previous post, I had a big revelation that I rely on makeup to make myself feel beautiful. Well, on my last day in Pittsburgh, I decided that I didn’t want to live that way anymore. I refuse to let makeup define me, and I refuse to search for beauty in something that fades. So, I decided that it would be good for me to go on a makeup fast. For 30 days, I am not going to wear any makeup – except for mascara and lipstick (I mean, I am 30 years old, so I'm not willing to go completely bare). Here's a picture of me, Jason and William at the Pirates game on June 3rd, the first day of my makeup fast. Can you tell I'm not wearing any makeup??? Wait...don't answer that question.
I’m excited about this new chapter in my life where I am discovering (or maybe rediscovering) the beauty and confidence that lies within me. I don’t have a song for today, but here are a few quotes I found online that are fitting for today’s blog.
“Don’t cry because it’s over. Smile because it happened.” – Dr. Seuss
“Man cannot discover new oceans unless he has the courage to lose sight of the shore.” – Andre Gide
“Courage doesn’t always roar. Sometimes courage is the quiet voice at the end of the day saying, “I will try again tomorrow.” – Mary Anne Radmacher
“People are like stained-glass windows. They sparkle and shine when the sun is out, but when the darkness sets in, their true beauty is revealed only if there is a light from within.” – Elizabeth Kubler Ross
"The real voyage of discovery consists not in seeking new landscapes but in having new eyes." – Marcel Proust
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